There are lots of days I think about Steve and wish that we had the chance to talk to each other before Steve took his life so tragically. I know how hard it is to want to just not be there- it’s a feeling that I have on a regular basis and a real battle for me and I know that if we could have just talked the outcome for Steve could have been a lot different. I know that I will see Steve in the paradise and I will hug him so hard. Hopefully Ali will not be there as she is a really evil person who thinks only about herself and manages to damage people and relationships around her with her truly evil personality. This is the second suicide of a man she was associated with and I can only hope that her current husband doesn’t end up hanging himself when she does the dirty on him as she did to Jason and Steve.

This is just to say that 8 years on we still miss Steve constantly and wish that we would have had the chance of telling him how much he is loved. If his situation had been different then we would have been able to spend many more years before his death to have really solid family times. I like to think that if we’d been able to see Steve then he may not have felt that he had to end his life in this way. He just wanted to be loved by his wife. Unfortunately the feeling was not mutual as we found out at his inquest. I know I will see him soon.

Just to share that I am looking forward to the resurrection when we will live forever on the earth in a peaceful paradise. Without this hope I definitely couldn’t cope with your loss. I love you as much as ever. I still don’t think that you killed yourself intentionally, you were obviously pushed to a point that you saw no way out to the distress you were being put through yet again. Love you mate. Your little sis. SnoozieB xxx