This is just to say that 8 years on we still miss Steve constantly and wish that we would have had the chance of telling him how much he is loved. If his situation had been different then we would have been able to spend many more years before his death to have really solid family times. I like to think that if we’d been able to see Steve then he may not have felt that he had to end his life in this way. He just wanted to be loved by his wife. Unfortunately the feeling was not mutual as we found out at his inquest. I know I will see him soon.

Just to share that I am looking forward to the resurrection when we will live forever on the earth in a peaceful paradise. Without this hope I definitely couldn’t cope with your loss. I love you as much as ever. I still don’t think that you killed yourself intentionally, you were obviously pushed to a point that you saw no way out to the distress you were being put through yet again. Love you mate. Your little sis. SnoozieB xxx

Steve, I never thought I would be sending this message to a memory but I want people who knew you to know one pivotal thing - all of your immediate family love you so much and that means Mark and Susanne, Mum and Dad. We were robbed of years we looked forward to spending with you, times when you would know how dear you were to us. Can't get my head round why you didn't leave a note for us but have no anger with you for shortening your life so tragically. As your sister writing this I grieve deeply every day that goes by and it gets more raw and I feel disbelieving that you could take your own life. One day I know we will find out. One thing I want to make clear is that I love you so much and no time will ever come when I get over this tragedy. Love you, will see you again. Susanne and Mark xxxx. Love to from Dad and Mum xx